I think I can safely say I know how you feel, atleast partially. (parents have been divorced 11yrs)
My dad always made a big deal about him being the "big dog" of the family. Even though I didn't live with him and he didn't pay child support, this was always a big deal for him.
When I hit the point in my life where he and I were making about the same, he got extremely bitter. Reason being I had more to so for it. My dad's problem was that he was an alcoholic. Even though he earned a decent salary, all he had to show for it was a run down trailer and no personal vehicle. He blew everything on booze.
By the time I was earning double what he was, he started accusing me of dealing drugs, stealing cars, etc. For about 6 months, I just blew him off and never talked to him. It took him having seizures and going to ER to get us in the same room. It took him checking into rehab for us to be able to talk the 3 hr drive it took to get him there.
I'm not suggesting that your father is an alcoholic, I'm just saying, don't make my mistake. Don't wait to talk. If I hadn't waited so long to talk to him, I could have saved both of us a lot of hurt.
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Irrationality is the square root of all evil
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