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Yah, ur rite. I just talked to her again. I was right about why she didn't want to show me her picture. She was worried that I'd "freak out and that I wouldn't want to go out with her anymore". Yes, well that's not the case with me. The real me inside isn't that mean. I wouldn't say "nope, so over" simply because of how she looks now. All the reasons about why I loved her in the first place, before that picture have not changed. I still love her to death.
She has told me that when she had the babies, she was "much worse" (her words). She has set a goal for herself. She tries to lose 5 lbs./ month. I think that's really good of her to do that. She does indeed take good care of herself nutritionally and physically. She always has and she continues to do so. She wants to go back to how she was before her babies.
I dunno, something still bothers me and I can't figure out why. Why does my mind have to be so mean? She says she'll be back to her "before" self eventually. At least, that's her ultimate goal. I wish I could stop feeling like this. It's like part of my mind is just plain mean and maybe even cruel. But the better part of me knows better than to let the bad part of me express itself. I'm really a very kind, honest, open guy and really am not like ur typical "guy".
I dunno what my mind is going thru rite now. It's all new to me. I don't like the way it's thinking and I don't know how to change it. Well, I gotta work tomorrow. I'll check back late tonight.
Take care and thanks for helping me out.
- Undercover_Man
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