noodle

I'm both. I sat here and tried to decide one way or another.
Many times, I find myself observing and watching and encouraging others to achieve and to take the spotlight. To find their own happiness. I find a lot of my own satisfaction in life through watching others that I care about succeed and find their bliss. But, I'm in a very important area of the helping professions and my job is to guide people in their journey through the dying process of their children. I derive an incredible amount of pleasure at the responses from families and kids about how I've helped them. People remember me from years ago.

My goal is to be there for the people that are important to me, while still retaining my own individualism and finding my own happiness. I want to be comfortable in my skin and my bank account enough to enjoy life. Whatever it brings me. I've been writing a book about death for teenagers. It's taking forever, but there's nothing out there that says it's okay to be pissed off that you're dying. Everything's about my fish that got ran over, or whatever. I want to finish that.

The only thing tangible that I want to be remembered for is that in some form, I made a difference in the lives of dying children. But, I hope that each person that I've made an impact upon in whatever capacity I came in to contact with has a positive memory of me that makes them laugh or smile when they think of me. That's all.

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