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The advice I'd give him if I weren't a orc (and I'm not saying I'm not!) is this:
Adolescence is a confusing time. Your body is changing in ways that are strange to you--including what your hormones are telling you that you like and don't like. Now is not the time to worry about the end result (like "how you'll turn out"). Things can get pretty scrambled up during this time in people's lives.
If you are gay, it will take you some time to come to terms with it. You will have to deal with the nonsense our culture has told you about homosexuality. Eventually, you will realize that there's more to you than who you sleep with, and you'll end up being okay with all of yourself. (Actually, you'll figure that out if you're not gay too--you just won't have to deal with the societal stuff about homosexuality.)
Until then, yeah, it's going to be confusing and hard. I recommend you find someone you can talk to about this. Our feelings and fears have complete control over us until we let them out. I suspect that even writing this letter helped a little, right? Go to a school counselor or an older relative you can trust to keep it confidential.
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