Ok I am going to be honest and say that you sound very insecure, not about your relationship, but about yourself.
I used to be like you. I always worried that my boyfriend would cheat on me, always wondered if he was looking at other women. I would get hysterical over nothing. It got to the point where he would go out with people and just stare at the wall for fear of getting caught doing something inappropriate.
It took me a while to realize that this sort of thing is just plain selfish and unfair. No one deserves to be treated like that, especially if they have never given you a reason to believe that they are cheating on you.
A lot of this came from the fact that I was insecure about myself. I think you need to learn to relax a little more. Why worry about stupid little things? You are only hurting yourself. There are far more important things in life to worry about than why someone didn't call you at 4am.
My boyfriend and I have had a long distance relationship for a while, mainly because I was in school. He now lives three hours away and I am planning to move there next year now that we are more serious. I would never expect him to call me every day. I have my own life and job to worry about. Sure it is nice to get a text message or chat on messenger but I don't wait by my computer or phone.
I think you need to just relax more and realize that she does care about you even though she doesn't call you all the time. And honestly, if you keep acting to clingy you may even scare her off.
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