I really appreciate the replies.
I think the main source of my frustration is that I always take up new things (hobbies, jobs, friends, etc.) in an effort to escape the old ones. Then after a while I end up doing the same thing again. It's a vicious cycle that leaves me with no stability in my life. I've always been the type of person who told people "you can do anything you put your mind to," yet now I'm having trouble doing this myself because I find it's "not that easy."
Another thing that really eats at me is the fact that when I was in high school I was making more money in a week of working on the side than I make in an entire month of working 9-5! And no I was not a drug dealer. I quit what I was doing (wholesale apparel - some real some knockoff clothing) because I didn't find it completely ethical. For about 2 hours of work per day and sometimes up to $1500 a week I feel like an idiot for quitting.
What's funny is I now work for some of the companies I used to bootleg products of. Ironic eh?
As for spending habits, I buy groceries and lunch every day. I guess I could bring sandwiches etc. to work and save a bit. I think my second biggest income eater is buying marijuana, which is about $40-50 dollars a week give or take. Besides that I don't spend any money on clothes, movies, bars, alcohol, none of that. It's easy to say "well just stop buying weed" but when you have nothing else to do it's hard to resist. I'd say my spending is pretty frugal. I live in NYC and prices for everything are so inflated that my purchasing power is instantly diminished just by being in the vicinity of this city.
What I REALLY want to do is spend some time in South America, namely Argentina and Brazil. I've heard Argentina is an entreprenuers dream and I've done extensive research on the country, culture, and business opportunities available to foreigners. My problem is getting the money to get over there and having enough to live and start something up.
Just the fact that I recognize my problems atleast puts me a step ahead. I'm just letting everything bottle up and come out at once.
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