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I'm really sorry to hear things are so dismal. Having been in that place, where everything seems too bleak and unlikely to change, I hear what you are saying.
Running away presents new challenges, and maybe new opportunities, but the constant remains, and that is you. You can't run away from yourself, and the feelings of desolation you harbour will likely travel with you.
I'm not going to suggest therapy unless that is an option you're willing to explore.
Surely there must be one individual you can talk to? Is your brother an option? Is there a help line out there you can call for free counselling?
Feeling removed emotionally from everyone around you is a lonely feeling, but it can change. Unfortunately, its going to require some work on your part.
Reach out to someone.
I don't know if this is any help.
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Thats the last time I trust the strangest people I ever met....H. Simpson
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