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Hmmm, my dear friend. Sounds like such a sticky situation. I've been in a similar one. She sounds like a cheater to me plain and simple...the thing with cheaters is that you never fully gain the trust back no matter how much you tell yourself you did.
[she constently tells me she loves me and wants to be with me forever some day but wants to live now. ]
This tells you she wants you as a safety net incase she finds herself alone but still wants license to go out and party and screw other guys. I'm sorry its not fun to be someones safety net, just don't let her use you. You seem like a really wonderful person who cares about her alot its just that she doesn't appreciate it or respect you...ie the jerking you around and sleeping with that other guy Mike.
In honest advice I would cut her out of my life completely and just move on.
Yes, it will hurt, it will hurt so bad you'll want to run back to her...however there is light up ahead. You will look back a few weeks maybe months and realize you did the right thing by letting her go and standing up for yourself and realizing you deserve someone who treats you well. You feel lost without her because you've been together for four years, I would know. I was with a guy for nearly 2 years and when we broke up I didn't know what to do with myself. I decided I would go to the gym with the time I used to spend on the phone with him, or go do something productive, focus on school. I had pretty much forgotten how to be single when we ended, which is what you will feel when you decide to leave.
Best option in my opinion would be to get out, do whats best for you, find someone without mind games.
You'll mourn it for sometime and then remember how to be single again and have fun with friends, go on dates, do whatever.
Enjoy your singleness!
Hope this helps!
-Kim
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