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He has no problem with that, but I most definatley do...I have too much here, EVERYTHING in fact. I just couldn't even begin to think about leaving all of that behind for the rest of my life.
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Honey, you're putting someone else first in your life.
I have been there, done that, didn't get the T-shirt. I know how you feel, I know what you're going through, I know EXACTLY what your boyfriend is like.
If he loved you, he'd respect your wishes and listen to your concerns about moving. If he loved you, he would be willing to do everything he can to make you feel good about yourself. If you are having low self esteem, he doesn't love you enough. Love makes you feel good- happy, joyful, content, peaceful. True, deep, honest love will build you up, let you grow inside, feel fufilled and special.
Please, please, please take some time to be off by yourself and think over the last year and a half with him. Be objective. Have you had to change yourself or your behavior to suit his needs, while he refuses to change his behavior to suit yours? Have you ever felt that he wasn't putting your needs before his own? When you're with him, does looking into his eyes make you feel like a goddess, like Eve in the garden, like singing and dancing because it makes you so happy?
Real love doesn't leave you with questions. True love is beautiful, and if you have true love then you will look and feel beautiful and radiant. Girl, you don't have true love. You don't have happiness. You have a boyfriend who sees you as a convience and a warm wet hole to put his dick in. I'm sorry, but that's the truth.
Re-read little_tippler's post. She said a lot of very good, very smart and very true things.
Be happy- set yourself free, start living again, re-discover yourself. I did it, and it was hard at first but it was THE BEST THING I'VE EVER DONE IN MY LIFE. I can't stress that enough.
