JamesB

So,

Its been a few months since the love of my life dumped my sorry ass. Things were really rough for me for about a month and a half after I was dumped. I think I did a pretty good job of coping - no rebounds, no substance abuse, etc. In fact, my distraction was to jump on my mountain bike and ride for at least an hour any time I felt any kind of anxiety.

Last we talked, we were going to give things another shot - take it slow and see what happens. We went on a date and things felt fairly safe - not 'familiar' but not awkward. The next day rolls around and she sent me a very cold email saying that she never wanted to see me again. It was quite harsh - she said something to the effect that she can not let herself be charmed by me again. She dumped me because her mom hates me - the same mom who openly admits to her about being controlling and manipulative.

So now university is back in session and we both go to the same school. I am in my final year which should be a blessing.

The problem that I am facing now is that I have feelings of anxiety about going to school. The last thing on earth I want is to see my ex. but I know it is inevitable. I intentionally skipped the first day of classes because I felt so uneasy about the whole thing.

I have been sleeping very poorly due to the anxiety and wake up not wanting to go to school every day. I desperately need to change this mentality - I just don't know how I can.

Any suggestions?

I know that I could do the obvious and just confront her saying 'hi'. I really don't know how well I would handle it though. She was my everything.

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