When is too much too much
I've brought it up before that I was in a relationship with someone I adore, the only problem is she has substance problems and doesn't know how to get away from them. She moved away weeks ago. We haven't been dating for over 2 months and I know that she picked up a relationship before she moved, the relationship was based on that addiction. She is coming back soon and wanted to come back for the relationship I just spoke of. I'm sure that it will be turned down because I know the individual.
I understand that things for me will never work as long as her problems follow her. I said I adore her and that is an understatement. I love her dearly but can't watch her throw her life away, but at the same time I can't fix things. I don't even know if she loves me anymore but I keep holding on hoping it will fix itself someday. I will keep this woman in my life no matter the cost, my only problem is I don't know if I should try and persue her like I wish to, if I can get herself to clean up. I understand that I can't make her clean up and that's her own choice but I'm so lost in this entire situation. She's too important to me to walk away from but I'm getting close to cutting my loses and thinking that someday years down the line that her and I could work. I know that it is possible, I've seen it in her eyes, we could have been everything together.
I'm kind of ranting here but I'm wondering what people think is the best option. Try and approach as a friend (which I am now) and get back with her if she can fix herself. Try and get back with her and fix things. Or totally walk away.
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