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The most important part right now is to identify the REAL source of the anxiety. It's generalized at this point to "because of Sunday," but I believe it is something deeper. The reason it shakes you still is because its something that could happen again at any time. It pointed out a percieved "weakness" and you're afraid that the next time it happens you won't be able to recover.
Working as a Web Designer for a local newspaper I know your plight precisely. They publish on Tuesday night at 11 pm and I have to have the entire issue re-formatted and uploaded by Thursday morning. I'm at my other job and class until 5 pm on Wednesday, so I have about 8 hours to do 10 hours of work. Every damned time it comes around I get a little anxious.
So what is the source of your anxiety?
Afraid of overcommitting to something?
Afraid of not knowing something or your boss thinking you're stupid?
Afraid that the next time you won't have enough time?
My impression is that you feel "lucky" this time that you finished in time, and that next time might not be the same. If this is the case, then make any preparations you need to so that in the future you can tell your boss that you don't know how to do something, and that he'll have you to allow you some time to learn it. Employers cannot ever expect that their employees know everything. They hire you because you've got a base knowledge and you have the ability to learn new things, not that you're the Master of the Universe when it comes to Web Design.
We just had a presentation in the class I tutor by 3 gentleman from Boeing, and they said that their college degree was great, but using it in practice was entirely different. They said the first six months at Boeing they learned just as much as they did in four years at a University, and that they'd been hired because they had the ability to LEARN, not because they were amazing right out of school.
I think you just need to remember that (a) you shouldn't expect to know everything and (b) your boss doesn't expect you know everything either. Just make sure you give yourself the chance to let him or her know before it happens again, and you've got no reason to be anxious.
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