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Last night “pool girl” calls me plastered, (she was slurring her words, and I could barely understand her) she wanted me to pick up a 30 pack of bud light for her. I told her I was almost home, and then she asked if I would come over. She was having a little get together with a few friends. I told her that I need to pickup my kids from my outlaw’s house in a little while, and that I might come over a little bit. I got home and was a little hesitant to go over there with her being so drunk, but she said that she had other people over and I really want to meet more people from my complex so I went over.

I get over there, and it just two guys playing her PS2, some boxing game. After about 20 minutes we decided to go over to my place and have 1 beer before I go and pick up my daughters. We start walking over to my place (I have to keep my arm around her so she can walk straight). Almost to my house, she tells me that when she is drunk that she is honest, and that she is falling in love with me. I really didn’t know what to say, so I said nothing. We get back to my place and sitting on the couch watching the football game, and she tells me it again, and if it bothers me that she feels that way. I was pretty frank with her, letting her know that I wanted to take that part pretty slow, and that we haven’t know each other that long. 15 minutes later I took her home and picked up my girls. I got a text messages from her last night, “Embarrassed. I am sorry I got so drunk and talked WAY too much. I still miss you!”

On a related side note, just yesterday or the day before she asked me casually if I was ever going to sleep over, and I told her that is how things got complicated in my last relationship, so NO I wasn’t.

I like “pool girl” and I like hanging out with her, and the truth is she is the best fuck I have ever had. But that is pretty much where it ends I have zero romantic feelings for her, and I won’t be developing any for her. From day one I have been pretty careful about the words that I use. Never once told her how I felt about her, never tried to stake any claim to her, in fact I even told her that I came real close to going home with a girl when I was on vacation. Never once used words like girlfriend, dating, seeing when talking about us. I never planned on this turning into nothing more than a summer fling. This time last year I was still legally married, and have no plans in getting in a relationship with someone right now, its fun time for me. I know its selfish, but this is my time to act that way.

Okay so do I give her a pass, cause she was drunk? If I don’t have any plans of taking the next step should I cut my ties as soon as possible? If I do cut it off, I want to do it in the smartest way possible, and not get the boiling bunny when I get home from work. Again, I do like hanging with her, and she is soooooo freakin’ good in the sack. I really don’t want to end it, but if I must I will. Has this change the dynamics of our relationship, and it can never be what it was?

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