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Yep, great advice above. As Jess said, this is not about you, nor should you enable him to continue this self-destructive behavior at your own expense. Walk away from him very carefully... I know you love him, but this is bigger than that. If he doesn't get himself taken care of, it won't matter how much you love him... nothing could heal what's happened to him.
I say this not from the experience of a boyfriend being suicidal, but from my mother saying very similar things to me throughout my life. From a very young age, I remember her pretending she was going to kill herself, just to see what I would say or do... she did this over and over again until I learned it was just manipulation. Over time my heart became pretty dead towards my mother... it was either that, or give in to her emotional manipulation. And I couldn't do that, no matter how much I cared about her.
It's a similar situation to yours; very emotionally messed-up people are, unfortunately, not our jobs to take care of. It comes down to personal responsibility... what they are willing to do for themselves. You can never truly help anyone unless they realize what the fuck is wrong with them first, and even then it still comes down to their own effort to heal.
Care for yourself first and foremost. Leave him to himself, or call a professional on his behalf... but get yourself out of his harm's way.
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And think not you can direct the course of Love;
for Love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.
--Khalil Gibran
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