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I think she's probably figured out that you like her. And either she likes you back, or isn't sure. I also think the not speaking to you for a month and a half thing is weird but it could just be lack of maturity.
The first time she didn't speak to you, I find it odd that she was angry because of the rumour that you two were dating. Why would she be angry if she wanted to date? So I'd tread carefully on this one.
Also bear in mind that you're going to start uni and that for both of you a lot of things will change in the next months. She may just really value you as a friend, and partly because you do pretty much everything she asks you to. Sorry I'm sure that hurts a little. I'm sorry to disagree with other posters but I wouldn't hedge all my bets on this girl.
You also sound quite young...so take it easy and go ahead and declare your love for her. I think you owe yourself that, if you believe that you love her as much as you say. Think of it this way, you have nothing to lose. If she loves you back, great! If she doesn't, you may lose her friendship, but in the long run, you probably wouldn't be capable of staying just friends with her, at least not right now.
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Whether we write or speak or do but look
We are ever unapparent. What we are
Cannot be transfused into word or book.
Our soul from us is infinitely far.
However much we give our thoughts the will
To be our soul and gesture it abroad,
Our hearts are incommunicable still.
In what we show ourselves we are ignored.
The abyss from soul to soul cannot be bridged
By any skill of thought or trick of seeming.
Unto our very selves we are abridged
When we would utter to our thought our being.
We are our dreams of ourselves, souls by gleams,
And each to each other dreams of others' dreams.
Fernando Pessoa, 1918
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