BlackIce

I love her to death. I do. It has NOT been easy whatsoever. I'm 21 shes 19 *yeah I know we're young* but I find myself not being "in the mood" as much as I used to be. I think its because shes back at home away from school so we cant go crazy like we used to in her dorm room. She still wants me the same but I feel crappy that I'm not as horny as I once was with her...I find myself being bored a bit because I want to go do things but alot of times we're stuck just going to the mall or something along those lines. I feel as though we should be doing something more than what we are right now...I dunno.

On the other hand, Im also ridiculously attracted to one of my friends and I know I have feelings for her. I feel shitty because of it though. We got drunk one night and almost had sex but didnt. Ever since then she's pretty much been attached to me. And honestly, I like it. Although we are compatible and could see myself dating her, I feel like its only so strong because its something "new" and different. Only thing is, my gf dosent hang out with any of my friends whatsoever and I spend more time with them because my gf is busy alot and ends up going away somewhere.

I'm not really sure what im trying to say here...maybe I'm getting tired of the same ol' same ol and want a change? I feel so unsure about everything nowadays =/