analog

You do realize that only a tiny percentage of high school romances continue to become totally permanent, right?

You've got the same thing going for you, from everything you're saying. You want to see the world, you feel like life is passing you by. You believe there are a million and nine things you want to do and you're already getting the house and the kids and the picket fence and the dog named Shep.

Go live while you're still lively enough to enjoy it, and find that special person who grounds you once again. When that happens, you'll be much happier for it.

I'm almost never one to discourage relationships, but it seems like you've reached terminal velocity on this one. Unfortunately, not everything lasts forever... consider this, though- at least you don't already have the house and the kids and the fence and the dog Shep... because then it would be a whole different issue, and not something at all where you could so easily attempt to move on.