Yeah. I live in TN and she....yeah...she kinda lives in Turkey.
We're both in college and I have 1-2 semesters left. After that I have no permanent plans. I just... It's just that every time we went out (which wasn't too many times) my mind was with her all that night. She was always on my mind. After she left I felt sad of course. I wondered if there were things that I didn't say or do to express my true feelings for her. You know the saying "the one that got away? Yeah, well that's how I felt. I felt as if she was "the one" that I let get away. I mean I knew she had to go back to her country and everything. I don't know. I just wish that I could make her see my mind and my true feelings that I have for her.
See. This is why I wanted to stay away from the ICP's. I just KNEW that if I started to be real good friends with them that ONE of them would be someone who I had extra special feelings for. *sigh* I will move out of my parents house (Yes I still live at home. You try moving out of a half-million house and into a tiny apartment) and then pick a place to live. I had originally picked Orlando, Florida because it's SO easy to make new friends and that's where I'd find someone to share my life with.
There was another ICP and I even considered moving to Brazil after college to be with her. But the feelings I have for this other girl are even stronger and I guess now that I think about it that I could easily find myself living in Turkey. I'm thinking WAY too far in advance, I know. My mind does that a lot.
Hmmmmm.....I also don't know if I am just infatuated with her or am actually truly in love with her. I don't think it's simple infatuation because they wear off as time goes by.
- Undercover_Man
