Hello. This could get pretty long so sorry if it turns out that way.
I moved to Florida to work at Disney. I was doing their College Internsip Program. They get these International College Program (ICP) students every few months too. I met this girl and at first I realized I could very easily get to really liking her. After realizing this, I forced myself to limit communication with her. I didn't want to "get attached to something I couldn't keep".
Well toward the end of her program I couldn't help but get to be good friends with her. I started to get attached and my feelings for her started to grow. I knew I should have stayed away from the ICP's. My roomate had made the same mistake and his girl had to move back to Hong Kong after her program ended.
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So toward the end of this girls program, I took her out to dinner twice to a very nice restaurant. She had a best friend too who my room mate was pretty interested in. Well I said goodbye to her and she and her friend started to head for the airport. They had decided at the last moment to cancel their flights and wanted to do a little bit more in Orlando. They had planned to stay at a hotel and somehow things went wrong and the hotel was full.
She called me late at night and I picked her up at the hotel and told her that she and her friend could stay at the apartment (which was very much against the rules). The other roomates didn't care. I had to get one of my roommates to sneak them into the apartment complex. They stayed in my room on the extra bed and left about 3-5 days later.
I got to know this girl a whole lot more while I took her shopping and spending time at Downtown Disney and going other places with her. Her friend left first and the next day I took this girl to the airport. We got their real early and talked for a long time. I said goodbye to her a final time and tried to get over her.
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We still talked a lot on MSN. Several months later I went back home and now it seems as if she's being more open with me. She's telling me more personal things and I'm giving her advice on how to handle some of her personal problems. Since she's been more open with me, I've found myself having those same feelings I had for her back when she was in Orlando. I thought I had buried them deep enough in my brain but it appears that I didn't bury them deep enough.
Well that's what I think it is. I don't know. I don't know what it is I am feeling for her. I don't know if I should give it more time and see if these feelings pass again or if I should risk telling her or what. I let my mind tinker around with a long distance relationship and I'm pretty sure I could pull it off. I've seen and heard enough people go through their own long distance relationships and have learned from them how I would do my part in making one last. But I really don't want to think that far until I figure myself out first. And then I gotta figure out how she would react if I even told her.
This could be because I have no friends except those back in Orlando and the one's I talk to on MSN. I talk to them via phone or MSN. I don't have these feelings for every hot girl I run across. Only the very rare girl and once I do something about it, all seems to work out. Well, until we gotta go our different ways.
Has anyone else been in this situation or a similar one? I don't know what to do or think. Any help would be appreciated.
Thanx
- Undercover_Man
