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Yes, I do imagine.
and then I come to my senses, look at the world around me, and realize that I don't want that creep here.
I keep the mental image I have of him, which I know to be severely distorted, as my dream. The perfect moments of our relationship as fond and wonderful memories.
But lingering on it - I can't. It only makes me disturbed. After all, how can someone that you love so dearly and that claims to love you too decide to forceably have sex with you...
but there we are. that's my baggage. not yours. keeping imaginings in check is a healthy thing. reminding yourself that it takes time to get over these things...
yeah, it'd be great to see them from a distance. But I know my weakness and I wouldn't want to find myself involved in that mess again. I have written, he has written. we're staying away.
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"Sometimes I have to remember that things are brought to me for a reason, either for my own lessons or for the benefit of others." Cynthetiq
"violence is no more or less real than non-violence." roachboy
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