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Thank you tres. I've been researching her conditions so i could be a better support system. I found out tonight after a very tense and heart wrenching few hours, that she is also suicidal and can't be alone or her mind wanders to how she could end it all. That was probably the hardest thing to hear and something I have never had to deal with. It scares me to death and I know I'm gonna worry about her everytime she is alone. And yet, I'm not going anywhere, nor have I had thoughts of bailing. She knows that as I tell her whenever I know she needs to here it. I told her that no matter how bad things get or how far she pushes me away, I will be right there when she needs me. I just want her to be better for her sake more than our sake. I'm gonna be ok. I have lived a life with relatively no pain or situations such as this, and I feel the reason for that was so I could deal and handle all of this at the same time and be her strength and whatever else she may need. She told me she needs to leave and go somewhere far far away where no one knows her. I told her I would take her so she wasnt alone and so she didnt have to drive so she could just reflect. We are leaving in about 3 hours. I just hope it helps her at least a little bit. I'll update once I return home.
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