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Hey, guys. I'm returning once again (as if you remember me), and much more happily if not for a bit curiousity and concern. Anyhow here we go...

I'm in a relationship now that going very well I think. We both care about each other a good deal, and I find her amazing, smart, attractive, fun, (great in bed!) etc.. As you can see I think highly of this girl, but there is something a bit disturbing to me...

If anyone remembers, I was dating a girl earlier in the year, and for many reasons, but much to do with my inexperience with relationships, things went to hell, and I let myself get hurt by her. In getting myself back in order, I readjusted my views, learned how to be happy for myself, and felt much better in general. Though all the while this girl still piqued my interest even though I knew things werent ever going to happen. So I went on with my life anyway because that's what you gotta do, and eventually found my current girlfriend, who is by my accounts so much better than this previous girl. (That was the good part)

(Now for the bad part) However, I still get this nagging feeling whenever I think about that earlier girl. I'm a bit concerned because I feel like I find myself a little too interested in her, I wouldn't cheat on my current girlfriend or break things off to be with this other girl, but ya know, it annoys me that I still want this other girl. I'm almost positive that it's one of those things where you want what you can't have, but I want to know: Who else has ever felt like this? And should I feel guilty for feeling this way? (because I do)

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Here are some phrases I'd like to be able to say, in all honesty, before I die.
"That's it, send out the ninjas!"
"So then I had to kill my way to the second floor."