red0blivia

i agree, to an extent.
but i also think 'casual sex' is an extrememly broad term. one-night stands, fuck buddies, 'open' relationships... there are so many different ways to have sex casually.

i am completely opposed to what most consider a 'traditional' relationship.
typically, i always had one main lover (who was also my very best friend), bt we had an openrelationship.
this, to me, means that you are free to persue your carnal cravings with another if/when the mood strikes. but we were exclusively committed to eachother in another way... emotionally.

i had a horrible experience, once, with a one night stand.
we met in a sex club &, based on similar sexual interests, agreed to have a no-strings-attached animalistic fuck-fest. i went back to his place with him alone (yeah, not the smartest move - but i've always been big on taking risks... & i let him know that i had let my sister know where would be).
he was well over 6 ft. (said he as 6'10"but i think he was more like 6'8" - could be wrong), and i am only 5'5". he was a horrible kisser... grabbing me and pushing his large open mouth on mine, his teeth digging in around my lips, as he forced his tounge down my trhroat. pushing away only turned him on more and made him more forceful.
the fucking was ok... but then he starting telling about how he, once, raped this 18 yr. old kid in the ass and how he really wanted to rape my ass.
(into anal stimulation and really ready to try anal sex... but NOT with this guy and NOT by force - so i was, of course, horrified by this)
i jerked away &, speedily, did a backwards crawl all the way till i ran into the headboard,...heh... can't imagine the look on my face/ in my eyes at that point.
anyway, he coaxed me back down...but it wasn't long before i made an excuse and got the hell out of there.

point of me rambling on seemingly endlessly?
it tainted my view of one-night stands. now i have that fear in the back of my head, which really sucks, because this type of sex would be ideal for me right now.

you see, i do not want a relationship. and the last 'open' relationship/fuck buddy type thing i had ended very badly (friendship is the greatest loss of all), so now i fear that as well
besides, in the past i have entered a fuck buddy contract (where both parties are aware of and agree to the rules: no getting too emotionally attached, absolutely NO jealousy (grrr), and no evolution to a 'traditional' relationship with exclusivity rules and such). they agree in the beginning,... and then, not long into it, they want me to commit. all aggreements are thrown out the window and they want me to be all theirs, despite my repeated explanations of how i am a human being and, therefore, can belong to no one but myself...*sigh*

now, i just stick to fucking machines and household appliances.
how's that for casual sex?