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Yea, I had something similar happen with me. My best "girl" friend and I always liked each other, but things never worked out where we can date each other. Either she had a boyfriend, or I had a girlfriend at different times. So we stayed close. Some times we would hook up and fool around, this lasted a few years, throughout high school. Basically in the end, it just... ended. I still feel for her, but I accept the way things worked out. It was fine. And I realize now that she really wasnt my true friend, she was more. I dont know that you can have a best friend of the opposite sex, without having some attraction to them. I mean really... can you??? I know I cant.
In your case, Its similar. She's your "friend", but you want her, intimately. You want a relationship. So really, dont kid yourself. She's not really your friend. Your options are to continue doing what you are doing, and be patient and wait. Or just let it go cause it isnt working in your favor the way you want it to. I think its good that you are still fooling around with her sometimes. Thats good, but be prepared for when she tells you she has something new in her life.... So like i said, you need to be true to yourself and see what it is that you REALLY want. Good luck
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