04-11-2006, 04:36 PM
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Non-Rookie
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Wow...
Poor Girl 
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So, yeah...my life pretty much just sucks. I feel very much alone. I am going through a lot of hard times, just tring to get by. Nothing really seems to "set me free." I mean, I know what would, but that can't happen...when other people are involved, it hurts twenty times more. I feel horrible about myself, horrible about life, horrible about what is happening, and it just feels like I am breaking down majorly. Most of the time I feel like it is okay for everyone else to make mistakes, but if I do, all hell breaks loose. I feel like I listen to people, understand where they are coming from, but not many want to listen to me...not many want to understand what is going on. Like people just want to ignore me and forget about me. To be really honest, it tears me to pieces. Not only that, but it absolutely kills me when people rub stuff in my face that they know is going to hurt me. It isn't like stupid stuff either, but major deep down shit. Stuff that they know worries me, upsets me, hurts me...I have told them over and over...made it very apparent, but I guess that most people just stop caring after awhile...NOT me, though. I can't and do not know how. For that, it seems like I get trampled over and shitted on...is that really what happens to people that care, or is it just me? All I know is that a lot of stuff is going on with people, with people and me, and then a lot going on with just me...it's really hard, emotional, physical, and just everything one can imagine...
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It's so sad that her last days of her life were spent in that frame of mind...
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