Seeing him again?!
So I was around my ex-boyfriend of about a year and a half a few nights ago. I haven't really talked to him since I am currently dating one of his good friends. It's a really long story in itself how we ended up together, my current boyfriend that is. Anyways, it's been easiest for me to be angry at him (my ex) and make him out to be the most horrible person I can. My current boyfriend wants me to work out my "problems" with my ex so that they can be friends without complications because of me.
My ex and I ended up talking a little bit at the party, my boyfriend ended up going to bed early. I handled myself well but I felt really emotional after talking to my ex. We both said things to each other and about our past together and what we thought of things currently. The truth is he asked if I could have changed things when we broke up if I would rather to have stayed with him or if I would rather for things to have worked out the way they did. I am glad things worked out the way they did because I love my current boyfriend so much and he means the world to me. I really hope to give him everything I have and that we can make it through college together and see what happens. But sometimes i wonder what would have happened if I work things out with my ex.
I was a little intoxicated at the party which made it easier to talk I think, but my ex said that talking to me at the party made him think of all the "good ol times together" and that he missed me. It felt really good to hear him say this and to even hear him say that he missed me. I can't say for sure because he didn't say it but it felt like from the way he was talking that he realized he screwed up and he wishes in ways that we were still together.
The Dilemma,
My problem that I am posting about is after talking to him, I think about him and am not sure what to do or if I should just do nothing. I love my current boyfriend so much and I don't want to mess things up with him. But what am I suppose to do about my ex. I wish I could get him out of my head and heart emotinally which is hard to do if I have to be around him. I want to try to work things out for my boyfriend so he can be friends and hang out with my ex. But, what should I do?!
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