Hey- I think I need someone who can be totally objective to comment on my little problem. All my friends know me/her/the situation we've been in/the place we've lived at too well, and they do admit that they can never objectively comment on my prob or give me advice.
I just don't understand my ex.
Maybe I should start with a little bit of background story.
In the last two years I have been studying in an int'l school in the middle of nowhere in Norway. And that int'l school is like grade 11 and 12. The only 'special' thing is, every year there are 200 students, literally living together and doing every single thing together for 1 or 2 years, depends if you are co-years or one year above/below. Anyway.
So I did get together with one girl and spend pretty most of my last year there with her and all that. After a wonderful school year there, I had to leave for Cadana to study theatre in university- and she has to finish her last year in Norway (she's one year lower than I am). And last winter I went to her place in Switzerland to visit her, and in the end of the winter break she broke up with me, saying she has changed and she has lost the strength to keep the long distance relationship. I admit that I have been a bit too clingy and all that- but, new environment and all that... you know. Anyway I am not saying I have done nothing wrong. I still believe it was because of me that I have been trying too hard and being too serious and all that.
Anyway- she said it is not because of some other guy. But apparently, uh, it has barely been a month and I've heard she has got together with her 'best friend' who is her co-year. Then again I still get emails from her, roughly a week each, saying she still cares about me a lot and she said she's not doing it out of guilt or something, and she is concerned about my sounding mostly depressed and a bit like an alcoholic (like my grandpa) in my blog.
I just don't get it. She actually did said 'how could I not care about my ex-boyfriend who gave me such a great time?' in one of her emails. I just thought- if she cares enough she wouldn't get together with someone within a month after breaking up with me-- and if she really had such a great time she won't break up with me anyway. She is still applying to my university and all that. I just don't get it.
What does she want?
P.S. Thanks for reading this piece of teenage nonsense till the end
