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Here's an update for all that care. I stuck by what I planned, and didn't communicate with her for about a week, hell, I didn't even acknowledge her through my days at schhol. It may seem harsh, but its what had to be done. Then out of the blue she calls me and says she misses me and that this silence thing is killing her. We ended up meeting up that night and talked about things with a more sensible approach. She explained to me that she needs to find herself and make herself better so she can be better for me in the end. I guess I understand all of that but it still kills me. I told her this, among other things, and left her where she stood so she could contemplate what I said. I told her I'd talk to her whenever we're supposed to. She ended up calling me that night crying and telling me she wants to work this out, but she needs to sort herself out first. That works, I guess, but I still don't like it too much.
Then tonight we went to an early dinner and we got into a bit of a fight and she explains to me that she is focusing on us working through this rather than us not. A few questions. Does it sound like she is claiming truth or just tagging me along? What now? I don't want to wait, but there are always these whatifs on the whole sitation, and everytime I think about just giving up on it all, the quote by Stephen Ambrose stating "The past is a source of knowledge and the future is a source of hope. Love of the past implies faith in the future," comes to mind.I am still so distrought and I know I shouldn't be.
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