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Ok, this may seem cruel but I think your grlfriend is a bit immature. She sounds very selfish and like she went along with you because you wanted her to - granted she may have experienced for a brief time the power/good effects your love had on her, but she's not ready for that in her life yet - she wants to have a lot more "fun" than she feels you can provide and she's looking for some sort of exciting life that doesn't really exist. She's had fun for a while with you but now she doesn't know how to tell you she wants you to go away - so she's stringing you along. She has said some very hurtful things and you don't say those things if you really care about someone - even if you no longer love them. She also doesn't sound very balanced and to be blunt, you're probably better off without her. You sound a lot more well-grounded. The fact that she "calls herself a cocktease" isn't amusing at all...I think it's indicative of the type of person she is. Sorry again for the bluntness but I feel that this situation is pretty clear, having been in a similar situation myself.
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Whether we write or speak or do but look
We are ever unapparent. What we are
Cannot be transfused into word or book.
Our soul from us is infinitely far.
However much we give our thoughts the will
To be our soul and gesture it abroad,
Our hearts are incommunicable still.
In what we show ourselves we are ignored.
The abyss from soul to soul cannot be bridged
By any skill of thought or trick of seeming.
Unto our very selves we are abridged
When we would utter to our thought our being.
We are our dreams of ourselves, souls by gleams,
And each to each other dreams of others' dreams.
Fernando Pessoa, 1918
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