pan6467

So I will be bet free for 7 years. In that time other than hospital bills I have managed to wipe out all my bad credit and have been relatively debt free (college loans don't count, because as long as I am in I don't have to pay them.) I own my 2 cars outright, granted they aren't classics but they run well and look decent. My rent and bills get paid on time and I have enough money to live a comfortable lifestyle.

But now I want to buy the house and fulfill my dream of running a therapeutic community. In doing so I am taking a 100% mortgage on the house and I am scared to death.

I worry my friend is taking advantage of me. I worry that I'm not ready for the debt or for the task at hand. I worry that I won't find the people to fill the house. I worry that I"ll get bad seeds that will turn my house into a meth lab and take advantage of my naivity and being a nice guy.

I worry that I worry too much.

I wonder if I am ready or not for this.

I worry the housing market will crash when I buy this house and I'll be bogged down with unGodly payments for a house I could never sell to clear the motgage.

I worry that being around addiction 24/7 will eventually take its toll on me.

But most of all I worry if I don't do this that I may never have another chance and that I shall go through life forever wondering "what if?"

Right now I am scared to death and I just do not know which way I should go with all this.

Anyone have any stories of their moment of truth and change and how you dealt with the questions? Or advice........

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I just love people who use the excuse "I use/do this because I LOVE the feeling/joy/happiness it brings me" and expect you to be ok with that as you watch them destroy their life blindly following. My response is, "I like to put forks in an eletrical socket, just LOVE that feeling, can't ever get enough of it, so will you let me put this copper fork in that electric socket?"