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My dear taboo. I hope you're doing ok. I can so relate to what you feel since I too have affairs of the heart. Those who say to you...'how foolish, how reckless..' are being unkind. We are complex individuals with needs that are unique and most often ill-defined. Don't listen to those who judge you--you are no doubt hard enough on yourself.
Since you had no closure with him and that's something important to your emotional nature, that one thing may haunt you for a very long time. I guess that's not what you wanted to hear is it? I wish I had a magic formula to help heal your heart and quiet your mind but I don't. It is important that you be as honest as possible with yourself about the situation. You will grow weary of being sad but you have to find a way to release the sadness and regret. I find that long, hard walks are very helpful in clearing the mind. Finding your center again is a very long journey but you can do it. I speak from experience so I can assure you--there is life and great love after the affair. Let me know how you're doing, ok.
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