It seems perfectly natural to feel the way you do--I remember those feelings from college and still, even years later, have found myself feeling them again. I have learned only recently that for me, that I have to find happiness and contentment within myself where I am at. My SO and I were separated at one point for over a year, and I well remember the pain of feeling like she might be going on w/o you, and you feel stuck where you are. My answer for myself and to myself was to start each day with a spiritual exercise (reading, prayer, meditation, journalling). This allows me to create my own space for myself in my own life, and after a while, I didn't feel that gnawing empty feeling anymore. I still have days where I struggle with these feelings, just another part of the journey.
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