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Oh man, this is a rough post to answer, probably because I have been in your shoes before. I get scared of being alone, too... particularly late at night. But this is mostly because I am in a long-distance relationship and I am alone most weeknights, and it sucks. And sometimes I start to think it will always be that way, so I get depressed.
It's probably even worse in the wake of a recent break-up. It does sound like you broke up for the right reason, though. And don't think for a second that there isn't someone else out there for you. Was this your first boyfriend?
The most important line in your post: why do you think you're impossible to "really love?" Did you not believe that your ex-boyfriend loved you, and is that why you broke up with him?
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And think not you can direct the course of Love;
for Love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.
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