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Alright, here's the deal.
These feelings, this wanting other people; it's not going to stop until you do. It's part of being human to want sex and to occasionally want sex with someone other than the person you're committed to. Being married and being in love is more about making that commitment not to let these thoughts get to you. You're not a bad person for having them and you're right in not following them. She's more important to you.
As ratbastid said, part of it is the newlywed phase, when you're just acclimating to the fact that you agreed to 'till death do us part'. That's a big commitment and even if you're sure it's the right person, it's natural to have some misgivings.
Cut yourself some slack. You're not abnormal and you're not wrong. It's absolutely nothing to worry about.
I get sick of all the hollywood crap that instills people with the idea that when you find that special someone, you'll never think of straying. That's just not how the real world works. The thing that defines who you are and validates your love is how you act on those impulses.
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I wake up in the morning more tired than before I slept
I get through cryin' and I'm sadder than before I wept
I get through thinkin' now, and the thoughts have left my head
I get through speakin' and I can't remember, not a word that I said
- Ben Harper, Show Me A Little Shame
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