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Okay, I'm going to give you some advice as somebody who's been married (oh my God) 30 times longer than you have.
You're in what's called the "Newlywed Adjustment" phase of your relationship. You're still trying to figure out what the hell you've done, what it means, and how it's going to work for you for the rest of your life. It's normal. Took me about six months to start figuring it all out, and within a year or so I was rocking the married thing.
Here's the deal: right now your mind is playing tricks on you. Prompted by your sudden (to the mind) closure of other options, your desires and wishes are getting louder and louder. Somewhere in the back of your head, you always had an out until you actually had the ring on your finger. Now that the out is gone, and the automatic parts of you--the desires, mostly--are trying hard to get your attention.
It's fine. It's temporary. I can hear in what you've written that YOU'RE clear you made the right choice. Just tough it out. It will get better.
You're doing the right thing to stay in close communication with your wife about this. Make sure she knows you have zero intention to act on your desires. That's really important.
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