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yep, college life is supposed to be fun, lively, exciting, in addition to studying.

it seems everyone i know is always hanging out, going out, having fun... but i'm always studying, doing research, or if i'm wasting time i'm doing stuff like this.. surfing the web.

now i'm a senior and i feel like my time has run out. i haven't made many close friends in college like everyone's supposed to (i have made a few), and i've spent ALL my time studying. All I have to show for it is a whole bunch of A's... but not many fun experiences.

and most people at least have gotten or got girlfriends or at least dated, while i havent ever done either.

or that everyone i know has their own 'circle'. i dont have a close circle of friends either. my few good friends are in disparate circles..

i feel like socially my college life has been a failure... i used to laugh at people who joined clubs in freshman year that seemed to be a front for nothing more than a 'dating service' or for hanging-out or even joining frats but now i regret not doing the same.

i'm not sure if its not ever dating or having a girlfriend or the fact that i never truly made a close circle of friends, the kind where you just call up the crew anytime to hang out..

is this normal? or am i just a loner at heart trying to be a socializer...?

well, I'm kinda feeling frustrated/lonely so i'm venting here if anyone is reading...