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hey kids,

i tried a search but couldn't find anything. i will try and keep this short since that seems to help threads get read.

so i've been without a female companion of any intimate sort for some time now. as usually happens when i'm in this situation the size of my porn directory swells.

thing is I find myself in some sort of dilema or quandry. i always feel sort of like a shit after watching porn. maybe because i've seen lilya 4-ever. maybe it's because I was raised catholic, who knows, but it really does seem to me like most of it is horribly degrading to our dear sisters, mothers, and lovers.

so if i choose to give that up my other option is to head out trolling all the usual haunts in search of some woman who wants to think of me as i her for the night while we tiddle each others bits and pieces.

and when i wind up there i again somehow feel slightly sickened. again maybe any of those aforementioned causes, maybe i just think too much, but the whole drunk hook up just seems to demean all involved.

so, wrapping this up, does anyone else experience anything like this? if so found a way out - besides of course a gf. i don't mind being abnormal, just curious i suppose.


thanks, and i will donate again as soon as my roomate pays rent, pinkie swear

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tim(mah)