MEAD

I've been reading your other thread, man, and it seems as if this is the best thing for you. I know, because love is incredibly stubborn, that you will not think it now or want to believe it, but she was only causing you heartache even when you were "together."

I'm not a fan of long distance relationships by a long-shot, mostly because I have been in your shoes and recently too. After some months, everything makes much more sense, and you can really understand that this was the best choice for both of you. Right now your "understanding" is just love working as hard as it can to be unconditional with the hope that she will come back soon. There is no way you truly understand and accept this now. Don't even consider that for a few months.

You are going to end up talking to her because you will be weak. Shit will go wrong, and you'll get upset over and over even when you thought you were better, but eventually you'll get over it. You'll find who you are without being attached to her. It's really cool actually, you get to put yourself back together, all the better for being strong in a difficult relationship, and go out to find a sweet girl who's even better for you.

*A man cannot truly be a man till he's had his heart broken damn well by a woman.

But have faith that you will end up with the right woman at the end of the day, because that's all you want. If you can find someone who loves you better and who you love more fully than this one, then, fuck, will you be glad you and this other girl arn't together anymore.

For now, buy Beck's Sea Change (Interchange with some Dylan if you wanna go the more angry route) if you don't have it and listen to it on repeat a few times, be moody and angry. Just sit back and relax because it's going to all take a while.

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Here are some phrases I'd like to be able to say, in all honesty, before I die.
"That's it, send out the ninjas!"
"So then I had to kill my way to the second floor."