The thing you need most is the thing you want least of all, and thats time away from her. Time heals, and its what will give you that necessary emotional distance so that you can deal with the situation in a way which is best for YOU and not just HER.
So cut the cord for a few weeks. I guarantee you that you will feel better at the end, and be in a better position with her and yourself. Will hurt like hell the first days, but less for each day that goes. Then at the end of this you'll have new perspective, and can share some laughs with her and be more relaxed about the whole thing, instead of being a martyr about it like you are now. Dont make it some tearful goodbye, just say "i need to do this now", and stop calling and writing her for some weeks. you'll feel better for it, you'll see.
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