*hug*
It's not you. Seriously, it's not. Even "confident" people go through not-so-confident phases, so it only follows that you'll go through a more-confident-than-usual phase. But it's hard to hit that kind of phase in a relationship when you're with someone who is, subtly or not, belittling you. Saying "you're not confident enough for me"... is not the best way to show you what he needs. Clearly, he wasn't even 20, hmm? At least not mentally.
Give yourself some time to find out what YOU want out of a relationship, and then don't accept anything less. You deserve that. Besides, it just sounds more like you're a bit shy - and there is nothing wrong with that! I often find shy people attractive partially for the very fact that they're not pushing their goods in your face - you get to "discover" more about them, rather than knowing it all immediately. Your kisses mean more somehow, knowing you wouldn't give them if you didn't mean it, didn't trust me. Maybe that doesn't make complete sense, but that's how it felt to me, being with a shyer person. I bet that's what it's like to be with you, too.
He can screw off. You'll find someone who thinks like I do about the shyness, and who can give you what you want as well. I'm sorry you had to listen to such a schmuck.
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My heart knows me better than I know myself, so I'm gonna let it do all the talkin'.
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