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Old 10-14-2005, 05:14 PM   #1 (permalink)
Strange Famous
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love and attraction

Well... here is a question. And I dont mean to phrase this like Im just running myself down looking for self pity type of thing... but I genuinely am interested on perspectives.

What I am thinking is, is it possible for someone to be actually physically attracted to me?

A lot of people here will have seen what I look like, Im average looking - not especially handsome or ugly. the thing is I am very fat, morbidly obese in fact. I weigh 300 lbs and Im 5 10. Ive always been heavy, but up until 22 I was about 200 lbs and quite fit... then I stoppe dplaying sport so competively and started drinking a lot more heavily, and have gradually put on weight until I am this huge (I'm now 27)

What I ask myself is, can someone be actually PHYSICALLY attracted to someone my size? Could anyone look at me and go weak at the knee's? I care about my GF and know she cares about me. I can imagine loving her and see her feeling the same way. I know I act like a self pitying prick in terms of my online persona sometimes, but in real life Im a pretty likeable sort of guy. Im fairly bright, I care about people and things, I am never aggressive or possessive (really, NEVER), I have ok-ish prospects in life I would guess, I make people laugh pretty much whenever I try, so I guess I have a "sense of humour", I am not creative in anyway but I am quite articulate (even though I dont write well I know), a lot of people have told me Im a good listener, despite my online venting of depressive mood swings I get sometimes I'm generally quite emotionally strong around other people, and I dont let people in real life see me get so down.

All in all, I think Im a pretty good kind of boyfriend from most emotional standards. Not saying Im the greatest or anything, but Im a nice guy and I could imagine my personality as loveable, or at least dependable and protective...

But could someone find something in the way I am, and love me... to the degree that they could find me in any sense physically desirable? I dont mean this as a diss if anyone else here is my size, but i find myself physically repulsive. I am just huge, utterly huge. And yes, I should lose some weight, and I try sometimes, and Im trying right now as it goes... but as I am... I just dunno.

So this is a long post, but I guess what I am asking is, can you love someone enough that you could be attracted to them in a pure physical sense, even if they were physically unquestionably unattractive?

I mean, my Gf is on a diet now too... cos she wants to get into a pair of 24 inch waist jeans. I weigh close to 3 times as much as she does. And yeah, i can see how I could seem in someone;s mind as big, strong, protective, steady... but surely just plain ugly too. When I think of it, I dont know how she can bare to sleep with me.

I might sound like a total prick and a hypocrite, in fact I know I do, but I couldnt sleep with a 300 lbs women.

To what degree can being attracted to someone's personality blind you to physical ugliness? And how long can it last? What does anyone think?
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