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Just a point that I wouldn't want to get lost here - there is nothing wrong with your sexual orientation, regardless of what it is (and yes, asexual counts as an orientation). It's okay and absolutely normal to not have any interest in either sex, even if it's not exactly common. It's also fine to like men, women or both. Whatever your preference is, it's not something within your control and so long as you try to fight it you're going to be miserable.
Having said that, I'm also curious as to what you think about when you masturbate. What gets you hard, what makes you feel that urge, what pops to mind etc? Do you look at pornography or anything else? Asking these questions may help you to figure out where your heart really lies. And don't say nothing to this question, because that is a lie. You're always thinking about something and when you masturbate your thoughts are almost necessarily sexual (it's very difficult to maintain an erection without the thought behind it). So the next time you jerk the weasel, just let whatever comes naturally to you come and see what it is. You may be surprised or you may not, but at least you'll know. You don't even have to tell us; we don't know and frankly on my own behalf I can state that I don't really care whether the answer is men, women or pygmy marmosets. The point is for you to understand yourself.
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I wake up in the morning more tired than before I slept
I get through cryin' and I'm sadder than before I wept
I get through thinkin' now, and the thoughts have left my head
I get through speakin' and I can't remember, not a word that I said
- Ben Harper, Show Me A Little Shame
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