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toby19 · 10-13-2005, 08:03 AM

The absolute truth. Further to that, I never until recently contemplated this statistically (according to the media and the internet) freakish lack of desire.

In contrast, I have basically masturbated almost every single day since winter '97, when I was approaching the ripe, tender and Jewishly significant age of 13, and for the better part of this year I became thrice as libidinous. I am now almost 21, still no desire. I mean I have masturbated while visualising or watching oral sex, but that was only as a brief phase, and now I feel that I would never want to have that done to me.

Now I should mention that the situation is not necessarily as straightforward as I portray it, as for a little less than a year, I was feeling these insidious (bet very vague and intermittent) homosexual perceptions of various appealing guys at my highschool, and before that I briefly felt this vague but disconcerting perception of myself as being genderless. However since then I have felt as heterosexual as ever. Decidedly heterosexual. Heterosexual like Hef. Heferosexual. So I do not really consider the 'weird' phase as being anything more than exactly that.

I mean, I absolutely adore women, I am quite the perv (in a politically correct way though, I believe) and I will even state emphatically that my lust for the female form as become more refined and specific. I love everything about them, essentially every aspect of the female personality I appreciate as an integral piece in the beautiful tapestry that is feminity.

And yet I have simply never desired 'IT".

So I implore you all, 99.999999% of whom are sexually more experienced than I to at least some extent (only kissed 3 girls on 5 non-consecutive occasions total, FYI), could anyone describe a similar experience of their own? This would be an enormous reassurance.

10-13-2005, 08:03 AM	#1 (permalink)
toby19 Upright	Never have I desired sex The absolute truth. Further to that, I never until recently contemplated this statistically (according to the media and the internet) freakish lack of desire. In contrast, I have basically masturbated almost every single day since winter '97, when I was approaching the ripe, tender and Jewishly significant age of 13, and for the better part of this year I became thrice as libidinous. I am now almost 21, still no desire. I mean I have masturbated while visualising or watching oral sex, but that was only as a brief phase, and now I feel that I would never want to have that done to me. Now I should mention that the situation is not necessarily as straightforward as I portray it, as for a little less than a year, I was feeling these insidious (bet very vague and intermittent) homosexual perceptions of various appealing guys at my highschool, and before that I briefly felt this vague but disconcerting perception of myself as being genderless. However since then I have felt as heterosexual as ever. Decidedly heterosexual. Heterosexual like Hef. Heferosexual. So I do not really consider the 'weird' phase as being anything more than exactly that. I mean, I absolutely adore women, I am quite the perv (in a politically correct way though, I believe) and I will even state emphatically that my lust for the female form as become more refined and specific. I love everything about them, essentially every aspect of the female personality I appreciate as an integral piece in the beautiful tapestry that is feminity. And yet I have simply never desired 'IT". So I implore you all, 99.999999% of whom are sexually more experienced than I to at least some extent (only kissed 3 girls on 5 non-consecutive occasions total, FYI), could anyone describe a similar experience of their own? This would be an enormous reassurance.