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yeah, well on this note - an ex of mine didn't like it because she didn't think I was as rock hard after I'd made a pre-emptive attack, so to speak. seemed to think I was being selfish.

as to the convo on procrastination, I think there are two distinct threads going here.

One is for the people that are still in school. Having been there, I can honestly say that there is a certain amount of "this isn't the real world" going on. You're in an environment, perhaps particularly in graduate school, where you are encouraged to think that not only everyone around you in your program, but everyone in general - is not only constantly thinking of new ways to do more things more effeciently, but that they also glide through their studies, being driven to study whatever fleck of fly shit they are focussed on, tirelessly day in and day out. Quick note:

They are not. They are you. They are also nervous and undecided and they feel as though they aren't smart enough or good enough either. They don't know what they're doing with their lives. As I heard once, a Ph.D. is someone who knows everything about nothing.

Another quick note: as Sage bordered on saying: you are, by default, someone else's bitch when you are in school. You are more or less told what to work on, what your more-or-less ill-defined objectives are, you are underpaid for too much work, etc. It's great for the school and the prof. You are in a position where you hold most of the responsibility with very little of the ultimate authority. That condition, in and of itself, can lead one to feel demotivated, as it is in-a-sense "damned if you do, damned if you don't." Maybe it's just me? I find once you're in the real world, you have freedom, if you choose it (at least if you're in a 1st world country, etc) to really go off the beaten path a bit, form your own goals...and you have those credentials.

That said, I've found that the best solution to reduce that sense of aimless anxiety is the Making of The List. Try making a list. Make a rough schedule. Remember that you can always revise your list, but at least you have some direction.

I know some people work better at the last second, but I have found that 1. depending on the nature of the work, and 2. how many things you are simultaneously working on, the quality of the work always suffers. If the quality doesn't matter so much to you, or it's repetitive drone work, probably doesn't matter. If it's creativity, I think it does.

I think the best thing you can do for yourself is 1. Give yourself a break. you're only human, and you're not a work machine. 2. After giving yourself a break, make that list. 3. Repeat as often as necessary.

/at least that's the way I see it.

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