Jinn

What exactly is my problem? I'd liken it to having absolutely no self control, but I'm not sure thats the issue. Here we go:

So -- I've had two weeks to complete my assignment for my Design and Analysis of Algorithms homework, which is due on the same day that I have the first exam in that class (tommorow). Thursday, I have a test in my Linear Algebra class, and I haven't been in a week or so. I know I'll be able to cram and pull at least a B on the test, but thats not really the issue.

It's 9:30 PM where I am, so let me recount the last few hours.
Knowing that I had a test AND homework due tommorow, I knew that I should begin it as soon as I got out of class (4:30). I come home, eat a little food, and screw around on the internet until 5:30. I waste some more time, and come 6:00 I realize that my brain is just too tired to study right now. If I take a few hour nap I'll wake up refreshed and able to do my homework, right? Fast forward to 7:00, I've woken up and I'm ready to study. Grab a Mt. Dew and I'm ready to go.

Okay.. flash forward to 9:30 -- I've just finished playing video games, and I still haven't studied or done anything productive for that matter. I'll likely be up until almost midnight studying and doing homework, something that could have easily been avoided. The thing is, I'm usually very good at predicting the time it will take to do something, and I knew at 4:00 that I'd have more than enough time so I could afford to slack off. If something isn't IMMEDIATELY due, I won't even consider working on it. This Sunday, I had a full day that I could devoted to these things -- and I didn't, knowing I'd have plenty of time during the week.

To make matters worse, the two things I told myself and my girlfriend I WOULDN'T do this week, drink caffiene or masturbate -- I did both tonight. My girlfriend, assuming I had been studying all night, went and bought my ice cream -- hoping to surprise her studious boyfriend. Imagine her joy when I got to tell that not only did I waste 6 hours, I hadn't studied, I'd masturbated and I'd drank caffiene.

Is this just a lack of self-control? Is my procrastination a "bad" thing if I can still pull above average grades? In essense, "what the fuck is my deal?"

EDIT to add: If you were my girlfriend's position, would you feel upset at me for this deviation from my plan? I feel like I've hurt her unintentionally..

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