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As a guy, since my mind constantly revolves around sex, more so the longer away from her, I am finding this time away from my lover useful to get to know all the little things I didn't have the courage to ask in person, and to have discussions about the future, horniness serving as the driving impetus. Fantasizing. Also it's really hot to nervously send a steamy email that you've been spending time on for days describing how you want them, where you want them, why you want them and get an equally responsive reply back. But for an older person I could very well see how this is all old hat. As it is my first relationship I'm trying to make the best of the time away to strengthen weak parts rather than beof it at myself up.
But yeah. It can be a bitch when you really want to hear their voice and they're busy with whatever.
Or as in my case, you're an isolated introvert at a huge university living with your senile grandmother and she's a busy dormdweller at a very small one
Yeah, some of the conversations I have had over the past month away have been just as intimate as ones in her arms, but I'm not going to pretend it's anywhere even near as nice. And you just have to accept the fact when they're busy / have to go that it's not you (or if it is you'll find out eventually and there's nothing you can do about it).
I have to admit I've been guilty of saying "I've got to go," and leaving, especially when something is tormenting me about the relationship. Sometimes it's just too much to handle that they are so far away and it's just easier to try hard not to think about it than reconcile your mind with your body.
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