Stompy

Yeah, I've talked to my friend's mom... who is pretty much the same way as J.

And it seems like they, for whatever reason, do things to start fights just because they're addicted to the drama it creates, or they do things to get attention.

But all the fights over trivial bullshit... isn't healthy. However, when things are good, they are good.

Naturally there are things in a relationship that two people need, and one of them is space. You shoulda heard the fiasco when I politely asked for a few days to myself. I wasn't sick of her or anything.. far from it, in fact. I just wanted a few days to myself to relax and do what I gotta do to get my mind off things (I was really stressed out at work during that time).

I was hoping she'd be understanding about it, but it turned into yet another, "you don't enjoy being around me." Ugh.

I think in the end I'm gonna have to walk away because I'm always getting the blame put on me, and while I do have my flaws, I believe she starts most of it due to her insecurities. It just gets to a point where I seriously question whether or not I was too harsh at times.

I do a good job in not letting people walk all over me, so when she pulls that shit, I don't budge. One time we were sitting together, all was well... when she suddenly brought up the issue with M out of the blue, just asking to start a fight. It wasn't in a nice way, either. She went from normal to complete megabitch in .5 seconds flat. I didn't want to fight, especially since I hadn't done anything, so I said, "ok.. I'm not dealing with this. I'm gonna take you home."

I'll sit there and question those things (whether I was too harsh or not), but at the same time... people have their breaking points. To be with someone you care about, and to get totally pissed off at them at the drop of a dime for something that was in the past.. it's just ridiculous.

I can see if it was an issue that bothered her and she wanted to TALK about it, but it never went that way. She'd just snap and get angry.. if I try to defend myself, I'd get the "you're just stubborn and always wanna be right". Kinda lose-lose.

One of the hardest things to do is realize this about someone you care about and understand that there's really nothin you can do.. and that ultimately you gotta just walk away because it's unlikely they'll change.

4 months isn't a long time, much better than having invested years, but when realizations come up like this out of nowhere, they kinda give you a nice slap in the face. It's really hard to deal with.

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