lurkette - I have two things to say here. First off is that because I'm (relatively) new to these parts and don't really know you that well, I don't have the advantage of seeing any development you've made. But I have a bit of a different perspective. I get a 'snapshot' of the person you are now. And what I see is a woman who is beautiful and confident in her beauty and sexuality, with a good sense of humour and a great mind to go with the great body.
From that, let's go this way. You say when Deb's around she outshines you. What if it's the other way around? You're quiet and charming as well as beautiful, maybe all the men fawning over Deb are too intimidated to do the same to you? She's more approachable because even though she's got the looks there's nothing to back it up.
Is it true? I don't know, you don't know. Without interviewing all the men after a party you'll never know. But life is perspective and if you choose to see it that way then it is that way. Taken like that, Deb isn't someone who should incite anger, she's someone who deserves pity.
The bottom line is, this bothers you because you let it. Usually people let things get to them because they don't know how to change. I know you're smarter than that, so change.
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I wake up in the morning more tired than before I slept
I get through cryin' and I'm sadder than before I wept
I get through thinkin' now, and the thoughts have left my head
I get through speakin' and I can't remember, not a word that I said
- Ben Harper, Show Me A Little Shame
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