Lurkette, I have been in the same situation you were in when I was in 8th grade. I struggled with my insecurities and beat myself up for years over them. While I was reading your description of yourself, I felt like I was reading something I might have posted a couple of years ago. As others have mentioned, you've got to look for the positives in yourself and embrace those. Once you have the self-confidence, you'd be surprised how your 'flaws' disappear or become obsolete.
As for your friend, it sounds like she is very unhappy with herself. People who have to rely on the outside to get attention typically have major problems on the inside. There is nothing wrong with dressing sexy and being outgoing, but if that is all you got...well...that's sad. It seems like the attention she seeks is validation for her. People should not have to rely on others for validation because in the end, you are left with yourself.
From what I know about you through posts and what I have seen of you in pics, you are a beautiful human being and have a lot of people who genuinely care for you. Focus on the positive and everything else will come in time. Also, don't spend your time around people who bring you down or make you feel terrible about yourself. That is unhealthy and can make you feel worse, as it is doing right now. Good luck!
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