There's a point which I think we all go through when we really wish we had the abilities of another person. I spent quite a few years of my life like that - no matter how good my work was, or what I accomplished, I always wanted something more or different. I wished that I had what others had.
After a while, and getting tired of grasping for straws, I just worked my self out of it and regained the confidence that I needed to step away from that. You can do the same thing - it just takes time and a little dedication.
Look at all that you have going for you in life - everything that makes you happy - and compare it to what your friend has. Yeah, she's married, but she's still so insecure that she has to go out flirting with random guys. She is still acting like she's 18 when you've matured way past that. She hasn't yet found stability in her life, and certainly hasn't found the self that she wants.
Of course, it's always nice to be wanted by people. However, there is also a line that shouldn't be crossed. You have a right to be annoyed by her behavior, but you shouldn't allow that to upset you. In the end, you'll end up the better person.
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"I've made only one mistake in my life. But I made it over and over and over. That was saying 'yes' when I meant 'no'. Forgive me."
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